“Since they know me, they undressed me. Then asked me to move my penis forward and backward, then bend down and widen my buttocks and attempt to defecate. They asked me to defecate as hard as I can since what I was doing was not enough. I said I can’t understand. At that time the prison police officer (stepped in and) hit my head.” When inquiries were made from the Prison Headquarters regarding the re-establishment of the Bandha Police, they were unable to provide any written document regarding its reestablishment. 7. First night in prison When inmates were asked to describe their experience of the first night in prison the most dominant feeling expressed by inmates was fear. Inmates stated that they had a preconceived notion of what prison would be like which caused them to fear what they may have to experience. One inmate stated, “We never know what is waiting for us.” Another stated as follows: “I didn’t know what kind of place it will be and what kind of people will be here. When I was outside, I used to hear people say how bad prisons are and how they torture prisoners. So, I was very worried.” Some inmates stated that fear even drove them to contemplate suicide, with an inmate stating that he had ‘Kaduru’53 seeds in his pocket, which he consumed on the way to prison requiring him to be immediately treated at GH. The first night in prison was a different experience for inmates who had prior experience of being in prison. However, where condemned prisoners are concerned, even those who had spent time in prison on remand stated they felt scared, with some stating it led them to contemplate taking their own lives. One inmate said that his first night at WCP “was just terrifying, awful”. Further, he explained that due to overcrowding inmates were required to sleep in a position which he described as “[packing] sardines”. It was found that certain special categories of inmates, such as those imprisoned under the PTA, felt more exposed or were more fearful than others imprisoned under the normal penal laws. One such female inmate stated that, “People look at me as [if I am] a terrorist.” Foreign inmates also stated they felt frightened since, as they explained, it was scary to be imprisoned in a foreign country where one knows no-one. Sadness was another predominant feeling expressed by prisoners, which they said was exacerbated by seeing so much sadness amongst the prisoners around them. “Everyone who comes in [to prison] comes crying,” an inmate said. Reminiscing about time spent with family 53 Goda-kaduru - Strychnos nux vomica- A type of seed which is extremely poisonous. Inmate could also be referring to another type of Kaduru seeds - Divi Kaduru - Pagiyantha dicotoma - which is equally poisonous. 55